Quickie

What is it about him that can make me feel the happiest with just a smile? God im helpless when it comes to him. If this is love, let me be in love forever, with him, just him.

Catchin' up

I've made this another blog and the purpose was to share my thoughts on general things like makeup//clothes//people, but i think i was just wasting my time, like i dont even take care of this blog properly with enough love, so what makes i think that i can handle two blogspot. Things like these happened a lot before. I have every social media account with more than 1 account. and, I REGRET IT. Its like my memories are all over the place. worse, i dont think i still remember the emails or passwords because i keep changing them from time to time. YEAP. That shows how unorganized person i am. I am so bad in keeping things at one place, i constantly think i am in need of something new, but obviously i wasn't! Its just me and my brain, my loyal partner in crime. 

SO heres me, feeling regret. 

As the cloud is crying

Ive always said to myself, dont run from your problems, face it instead. Because its just a matter of time bfore it comes and haunt you back.

I have a lot to think right now. Ya Allah, I know You are the best Planner, show me whats the best for me, and him. So us the best path for both of us, together. Because i know, You are the best Listener after all. Amin.

Future scares me

I tend to think about my future too much, i cant live my life now to the fullest.

Whenever i go to weddings, id be staring at old folks and wondering how do i look when im old. Tengok how their skin are, tengok how they eat very slowly because tak ada gigi dah. Im scared:/

But i guess i just have to be mature, continue living my beautiful life because aging will occur to everyones life, i cant run from it. Though i wish ill be 90 and still look as fine as i am now, as gorgeous as i'll ever be hahaha bring it on wrinkles! I'll stay awesome! Ahahaha

I'll be old and someone will be looking at me and says "i'd never get tired of seeing u & your beautiful face" :) - the love of my life.

My first post after soooooo long

Okay. Bismillah. 

Im now an official student of UiTM Merbok, Kedah, Diploma in PA. 

Kyaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Oh my oh my oh my im so excited to be back on keyboard, to be back on my diplodocus tummy. I miss writing here so bad. To be honest, its so hard for now to get on a right track, life's getting harder, complicated-er, lame-er and such. i didnt know uni life would be this stressed. its ok, maybe its going to take times to be able to get used to it.

SO hey! right now tengah honeymoon. yelah, cuti semester. honeymoon pun, results tak lama lagi nak keluar. haih kenapa la perlu spoil my honeymoon mood. but nvm, lets just hope and pray for the best :) 

tapi weh, i didnt know i can survive livimg without my parents around me. its like, a beautiful nightmare. kedah dengan bangi bukan sejengkal. memang it takes all my courage to actually accept the offer. because its either Public Admin at UiTM or Accountancy at Matriks. Account??? Account?? MEMANG TAK LA KAN. time spm pun terkebil kebil, nasib lulus je. alhamdulillah. So nak taknak, memang kena pergi. insyaAllah, PA ni pun 2 years and a half je. 5sem, ni dah nak 2sem. i'd better survive strong! U can Ainaa! 

Wink Wink. 

Alhamdullilah

It has been paid off. All the last minute struggles, finally has been paid off.

I woke up with so many negative thoughts in my mind. I woke up to "what if i dissapoint my parents?" that has been the most scary nightmare i dont even want to go through. REDHA kata hati kecil. kau usaha pun tak banyak, hujung hujung tanduk baru nak sedar. Dush.

Beratur punya beratur. i was shaking. Kepala otak ke laut. Not in the hall. Received the slip, nooooooo words can describe how so much thankful i was. I looked at the slip for several times (cant believe it is real) before i cried.

Alhamdullilah.

Called parents, spread the good news. Hugged my friends, thanked the teachers. Cari teachers and thanked Allah. I am so greatful. So so greatful He heard my prayers & actually granted them. Exactly how ive been pray for.  :-) tidak lah straight A's. tidak la best student. cukup, cukup untuk buat my parents happy, cukup untuk further study, cukup untuk idamkan masa depan yang cerah. congrats my girlfriends, u guys did great. semua pun beyond expectation kan? Alhamdullilah.

After so long?

Hey. Im actually writing thru my phone so this post mcm experiment la haha

Hey. Dulu ada rasa jugak nak change my blog to public but lately rasa mcm better orang x baca what i wrote.

Hey. 16days to go to spm. Verrry nervewrecking, im not ready and never will i guess?

Hey. Im supposed to do something else instead of blogging. Gotta ciao now.

Its fri-happy-day

I dont really have points of what to blab about. i just fee like writing, so hey hey :)

Today i finished my trials, it takes 1month untuk habiskan semua and accounts student finish last sbb we need to do 2 kali acc exam and the other subjects teachers were like "if tak jadi accountant jugak tak tahu lah" haha true. 

so mama opie has given birth!! to 6 cute tiny kittens. tp now tgh pusing kepala pikir mcm mana chaotic rumah i nanti 11 ekor kucing meow meow everyday. oh my. tapi they're too cute, i cant resist their cuteness so i'll just have to accept them with my open arms :) welcome babies. diaorg still takde nama yet, gotta think of it before diaorg semua bagi nama yg tak best langsung hahaha

i miss him so much. 

so thats the current updates of whats going on in me life. later? :)

The last thing i'd do is to give up on you. youre worth having and worth fighting for. 

They're the shining stars that brighten up my world in so many ways

                                                       

 its like 2008 all over again :)

  "I vow to love you. And no matter what challenges might carry us apart, we will always find a way back to each other." 

Watching cute loving movies like a walk to remember, the vow makes me feel like im in their world. im like, fall in love all over again with the same guy. its amazed me how loyal i am for now. how loyal i can be with the same person, the person that i never expect i would fall in love with. its been 3 years and a half. we never had an anniversary celebration, we never celebrate his birthday together, we just got on the phone and thats more than enough, the moment we spent together already consider as a gift, everyday is a gift. truth to be told, we dont even have our official date of our relationship. it just, happened naturally. one night, after night he ask me the same questions but i refused to answer. i just said, one day, one day because im not really ready. he never gave up until one night, i asked him are we official and he was like, i guess? haha that was cute. for us, dates are not really important. the feel, the joy, the happiness that we feel through all this time is much much more important than anything else. its like, everyday is our anniversary. we celebrate the love everyday, having him around is a gift for me. he still gives me butterflies in my stomach everytime he calls or even texts, i myself cant desribe how happy i am when he's smiling right in front of me. oh he once texted me this, "the next girl i'll ever love is our daughter" i've read it somewhere but the feeling when he said that, to me, is, indescribable. i really hope this relationship will last till marriage. i do pray for it.

Its nothing, i just, miss him. :)

Its funny how some people trying to be funny with insulting and being sarcastic. sarcasms are good, but when it comes to certain point, you got to be kidding if u take everything as a joke. you're not funny!! but hey i'll push you jump out of a cliff and finally thats a joke to me. :)

hypie!

Hi its 8.30am and i didnt sleep after sahur since i thought i could do maths revision instead of sleeping guess what  i did! alhamdullilah because lately the closer the spm, the lazier my lazy ass get.

Kelmarin i went to qiam with my girls, alhamdullilah since its ramadhan, i get the chance to maximise my ibadah and double the fun because i qiam with diaorang. thats the 1st time i do qiam in ramadhan, before this just ikot sekolah punya program. so alhamdullilah again :)

im still trying to improve myself to be a better person time by time, a better muslimah. and im thankful bcause ramadhan this year sangat membantu. i improved a lot :)

so that was a lil bit of ketc-hup. hope i'll be able to write again.

because i miss my hometown. :(

Setiap benda pun semua nak tiru. ni dah bukan 'coincidence' dah ni. pls be original, be you! not 'being-me-by-copying-someone-else. ' what a shame.

*ireallywantedtogotoschool.jpg*

Finished reading Before I Forget.. by Melissa Hill. one of the best novel i've read. oh and i adore Finn's character, so gentleman! screw Kieran. and i love Abby's family. :)

Just a piece of thought and opinion.

I've been reading some inspirational post from several web. well some of the suggestions dont apply as much to me but some did. it may be worthwhile read for you sweethearts. :D

1. Stop trying to be someone you're not. One of the greatest challenges in life is being yourself in a world that’s trying to make you like everyone else. Someone will always be prettier, someone will always be smarter, someone will always be younger, but they will never be you. Don’t change so people will like you. Be yourself, and the right people will love the real you.

well, this is obviously one of the big issue that most people trying to get rid of nowadays. alhamdullilah right now, i dont bother to be someone else.  i enjoy being myself as if everyone is ok with it. i know some might get annoyed but what can i do? i sure cant please everyone. as long as my family, friends and of course alan,  love me for who i am. :)

2. Stop trying to hold onto the past. You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep rereading your last one.

Yep this is undoubtedly true. life as we know it, we must have some regrets that we often wish it didnt happen. but kita kena sedar, in turn, this makes us stronger and of course experience is the best teacher, having a lot of bad or good experience will change our way of thinking, positively.

3. Stop trying to buy happiness. Many of the things we desire are expensive. But the truth is, the things that really satisfy us are totally free — love, laughter, and working on our passions.

This one is rough for me, and i know it makes me sound superficial. aiyak. its just hard to deny that i cant get happiness by purchase clothes, shoes, clothes & clothes and more clothes! but of course things cant give us pure happiness, the actual meaning of happiness. u know, from what i've read from everywhere, the more you spend some quality time with your family, the more happy you will be and yep i even expirenced it myself, i often spend almost every weekend with my big family and im happy. they are truly gifts from Allah and i am thankful. so laugh more and spread love wherever you go. :)

4. Stop thinking you’re not ready. Nobody ever feels 100 perfect ready when an opportunity arises. Because most great opportunities in life force us to grow beyond our comfort zones, which means we won’t feel totally comfortable at first.

This is what i fear the most. getting prepared. SPM. everytime i thought about it, it gives me butterflies. i am so damn terrified, 50+ days until trial. sigh. 

5. Stop being ungrateful. No matter how good or bad you have it, wake up each day thankful for your life. Someone somewhere else is desperately fighting for theirs Instead of thinking about what you’re missing, try thinking about what you have that everyone else is missing.

There is always room to be more grateful. :) 

Define sexy?

sexiness.

Hi hm rindu nak merepek banyak banyak luah semua benda dekat blog. sekarang semua kena tapis or lets say fake nya! its either people are too judgemental nowadays or im the one who being paranoid. u know, i was so addicted to blogging when i was 13 ke 14 tah. i sanggup tak tidur just to post updates about me life macam lah ada orang baca kan! macam lah! dulu sanggup curi curi buka laptop tengah tengah malam duduk dalam bilik stor panas panas habis hujan ribut petir di armpit. tapi bila ingat balik, indahnya hidup masa tu. konon macam zaman pemerintahan asoka la, zaman kegemilangan. macam ada prinsip, if  i want to do it then i'll do it orang nak cakap apa cakap la, aku tahu aku bahagia. macam macam benda gila i buat sampai tak tersanggup nak cerita kat sini. tp never over the limit of course. im a good girl!

lah sangat.

Dulu time hati senang, ramai sangat teman disisi. then now as time passed by, ciput je yang stay with me through thick and thin. tp alhamdullilah, apa yang jadi dulu makes me grow up much stronger. macam macam manusia dah aku kenal. daripada macam setan sampai la setan bertopeng angel. i selalu pesan kat my cousins yang baru masuk sekolah menengah, i said "kawan la dgn orang baik nanti baik la kau" time time setahun jagung ni la senang terpengaruh. amat grateful my friends yang stay sampai sekarang diaorang baik gila!

lah sangat.


So sebenarnya point i nak blog dgn apa yg i telah type, sangatlah lain. hahahahahaha mmg lari tajuk habis! apa ni woi aku nak update pasal kucing lah! nampak sangat terpesong sbb sangat penat dgn dugaan yang harus ditempuhi oleh calon SPM yang baik lagi cute.

LAH SANGAT!