Alhamdullilah

It has been paid off. All the last minute struggles, finally has been paid off.

I woke up with so many negative thoughts in my mind. I woke up to "what if i dissapoint my parents?" that has been the most scary nightmare i dont even want to go through. REDHA kata hati kecil. kau usaha pun tak banyak, hujung hujung tanduk baru nak sedar. Dush.

Beratur punya beratur. i was shaking. Kepala otak ke laut. Not in the hall. Received the slip, nooooooo words can describe how so much thankful i was. I looked at the slip for several times (cant believe it is real) before i cried.

Alhamdullilah.

Called parents, spread the good news. Hugged my friends, thanked the teachers. Cari teachers and thanked Allah. I am so greatful. So so greatful He heard my prayers & actually granted them. Exactly how ive been pray for.  :-) tidak lah straight A's. tidak la best student. cukup, cukup untuk buat my parents happy, cukup untuk further study, cukup untuk idamkan masa depan yang cerah. congrats my girlfriends, u guys did great. semua pun beyond expectation kan? Alhamdullilah.

After so long?

Hey. Im actually writing thru my phone so this post mcm experiment la haha

Hey. Dulu ada rasa jugak nak change my blog to public but lately rasa mcm better orang x baca what i wrote.

Hey. 16days to go to spm. Verrry nervewrecking, im not ready and never will i guess?

Hey. Im supposed to do something else instead of blogging. Gotta ciao now.

Its fri-happy-day

I dont really have points of what to blab about. i just fee like writing, so hey hey :)

Today i finished my trials, it takes 1month untuk habiskan semua and accounts student finish last sbb we need to do 2 kali acc exam and the other subjects teachers were like "if tak jadi accountant jugak tak tahu lah" haha true. 

so mama opie has given birth!! to 6 cute tiny kittens. tp now tgh pusing kepala pikir mcm mana chaotic rumah i nanti 11 ekor kucing meow meow everyday. oh my. tapi they're too cute, i cant resist their cuteness so i'll just have to accept them with my open arms :) welcome babies. diaorg still takde nama yet, gotta think of it before diaorg semua bagi nama yg tak best langsung hahaha

i miss him so much. 

so thats the current updates of whats going on in me life. later? :)

The last thing i'd do is to give up on you. youre worth having and worth fighting for. 

They're the shining stars that brighten up my world in so many ways

                                                       

 its like 2008 all over again :)

  "I vow to love you. And no matter what challenges might carry us apart, we will always find a way back to each other." 

Watching cute loving movies like a walk to remember, the vow makes me feel like im in their world. im like, fall in love all over again with the same guy. its amazed me how loyal i am for now. how loyal i can be with the same person, the person that i never expect i would fall in love with. its been 3 years and a half. we never had an anniversary celebration, we never celebrate his birthday together, we just got on the phone and thats more than enough, the moment we spent together already consider as a gift, everyday is a gift. truth to be told, we dont even have our official date of our relationship. it just, happened naturally. one night, after night he ask me the same questions but i refused to answer. i just said, one day, one day because im not really ready. he never gave up until one night, i asked him are we official and he was like, i guess? haha that was cute. for us, dates are not really important. the feel, the joy, the happiness that we feel through all this time is much much more important than anything else. its like, everyday is our anniversary. we celebrate the love everyday, having him around is a gift for me. he still gives me butterflies in my stomach everytime he calls or even texts, i myself cant desribe how happy i am when he's smiling right in front of me. oh he once texted me this, "the next girl i'll ever love is our daughter" i've read it somewhere but the feeling when he said that, to me, is, indescribable. i really hope this relationship will last till marriage. i do pray for it.

Its nothing, i just, miss him. :)

Its funny how some people trying to be funny with insulting and being sarcastic. sarcasms are good, but when it comes to certain point, you got to be kidding if u take everything as a joke. you're not funny!! but hey i'll push you jump out of a cliff and finally thats a joke to me. :)