Sunday, 15 December 2013

As the cloud is crying

Ive always said to myself, dont run from your problems, face it instead. Because its just a matter of time bfore it comes and haunt you back.

I have a lot to think right now. Ya Allah, I know You are the best Planner, show me whats the best for me, and him. So us the best path for both of us, together. Because i know, You are the best Listener after all. Amin.

Future scares me

I tend to think about my future too much, i cant live my life now to the fullest.

Whenever i go to weddings, id be staring at old folks and wondering how do i look when im old. Tengok how their skin are, tengok how they eat very slowly because tak ada gigi dah. Im scared:/

But i guess i just have to be mature, continue living my beautiful life because aging will occur to everyones life, i cant run from it. Though i wish ill be 90 and still look as fine as i am now, as gorgeous as i'll ever be hahaha bring it on wrinkles! I'll stay awesome! Ahahaha

I'll be old and someone will be looking at me and says "i'd never get tired of seeing u & your beautiful face" :) - the love of my life.

Tuesday, 29 October 2013

My first post after soooooo long

Okay. Bismillah. 
Im now an official student of UiTM Merbok, Kedah, Diploma in PA. 

Oh my oh my oh my im so excited to be back on keyboard, to be back on my diplodocus tummy. I miss writing here so bad. To be honest, its so hard for now to get on a right track, life's getting harder, complicated-er, lame-er and such. i didnt know uni life would be this stressed. its ok, maybe its going to take times to be able to get used to it.

SO hey! right now tengah honeymoon. yelah, cuti semester. honeymoon pun, results tak lama lagi nak keluar. haih kenapa la perlu spoil my honeymoon mood. but nvm, lets just hope and pray for the best :) 

tapi weh, i didnt know i can survive livimg without my parents around me. its like, a beautiful nightmare. kedah dengan bangi bukan sejengkal. memang it takes all my courage to actually accept the offer. because its either Public Admin at UiTM or Accountancy at Matriks. Account??? Account?? MEMANG TAK LA KAN. time spm pun terkebil kebil, nasib lulus je. alhamdulillah. So nak taknak, memang kena pergi. insyaAllah, PA ni pun 2 years and a half je. 5sem, ni dah nak 2sem. i'd better survive strong! U can Ainaa! 

Wink Wink. 

Wednesday, 3 April 2013


It has been paid off. All the last minute struggles, finally has been paid off.

I woke up with so many negative thoughts in my mind. I woke up to "what if i dissapoint my parents?" that has been the most scary nightmare i dont even want to go through. REDHA kata hati kecil. kau usaha pun tak banyak, hujung hujung tanduk baru nak sedar. Dush.

Beratur punya beratur. i was shaking. Kepala otak ke laut. Not in the hall. Received the slip, nooooooo words can describe how so much thankful i was. I looked at the slip for several times (cant believe it is real) before i cried.


Called parents, spread the good news. Hugged my friends, thanked the teachers. Cari teachers and thanked Allah. I am so greatful. So so greatful He heard my prayers & actually granted them. Exactly how ive been pray for.  :-) tidak lah straight A's. tidak la best student. cukup, cukup untuk buat my parents happy, cukup untuk further study, cukup untuk idamkan masa depan yang cerah. congrats my girlfriends, u guys did great. semua pun beyond expectation kan? Alhamdullilah.