After so long?

Hey. Im actually writing thru my phone so this post mcm experiment la haha

Hey. Dulu ada rasa jugak nak change my blog to public but lately rasa mcm better orang x baca what i wrote.

Hey. 16days to go to spm. Verrry nervewrecking, im not ready and never will i guess?

Hey. Im supposed to do something else instead of blogging. Gotta ciao now.

Its fri-happy-day

I dont really have points of what to blab about. i just fee like writing, so hey hey :)

Today i finished my trials, it takes 1month untuk habiskan semua and accounts student finish last sbb we need to do 2 kali acc exam and the other subjects teachers were like "if tak jadi accountant jugak tak tahu lah" haha true. 

so mama opie has given birth!! to 6 cute tiny kittens. tp now tgh pusing kepala pikir mcm mana chaotic rumah i nanti 11 ekor kucing meow meow everyday. oh my. tapi they're too cute, i cant resist their cuteness so i'll just have to accept them with my open arms :) welcome babies. diaorg still takde nama yet, gotta think of it before diaorg semua bagi nama yg tak best langsung hahaha

i miss him so much. 

so thats the current updates of whats going on in me life. later? :)

The last thing i'd do is to give up on you. youre worth having and worth fighting for. 

They're the shining stars that brighten up my world in so many ways

                                                       

 its like 2008 all over again :)

  "I vow to love you. And no matter what challenges might carry us apart, we will always find a way back to each other." 

Watching cute loving movies like a walk to remember, the vow makes me feel like im in their world. im like, fall in love all over again with the same guy. its amazed me how loyal i am for now. how loyal i can be with the same person, the person that i never expect i would fall in love with. its been 3 years and a half. we never had an anniversary celebration, we never celebrate his birthday together, we just got on the phone and thats more than enough, the moment we spent together already consider as a gift, everyday is a gift. truth to be told, we dont even have our official date of our relationship. it just, happened naturally. one night, after night he ask me the same questions but i refused to answer. i just said, one day, one day because im not really ready. he never gave up until one night, i asked him are we official and he was like, i guess? haha that was cute. for us, dates are not really important. the feel, the joy, the happiness that we feel through all this time is much much more important than anything else. its like, everyday is our anniversary. we celebrate the love everyday, having him around is a gift for me. he still gives me butterflies in my stomach everytime he calls or even texts, i myself cant desribe how happy i am when he's smiling right in front of me. oh he once texted me this, "the next girl i'll ever love is our daughter" i've read it somewhere but the feeling when he said that, to me, is, indescribable. i really hope this relationship will last till marriage. i do pray for it.

Its nothing, i just, miss him. :)

Its funny how some people trying to be funny with insulting and being sarcastic. sarcasms are good, but when it comes to certain point, you got to be kidding if u take everything as a joke. you're not funny!! but hey i'll push you jump out of a cliff and finally thats a joke to me. :)

hypie!

Hi its 8.30am and i didnt sleep after sahur since i thought i could do maths revision instead of sleeping guess what  i did! alhamdullilah because lately the closer the spm, the lazier my lazy ass get.

Kelmarin i went to qiam with my girls, alhamdullilah since its ramadhan, i get the chance to maximise my ibadah and double the fun because i qiam with diaorang. thats the 1st time i do qiam in ramadhan, before this just ikot sekolah punya program. so alhamdullilah again :)

im still trying to improve myself to be a better person time by time, a better muslimah. and im thankful bcause ramadhan this year sangat membantu. i improved a lot :)

so that was a lil bit of ketc-hup. hope i'll be able to write again.

because i miss my hometown. :(

Setiap benda pun semua nak tiru. ni dah bukan 'coincidence' dah ni. pls be original, be you! not 'being-me-by-copying-someone-else. ' what a shame.

*ireallywantedtogotoschool.jpg*

Finished reading Before I Forget.. by Melissa Hill. one of the best novel i've read. oh and i adore Finn's character, so gentleman! screw Kieran. and i love Abby's family. :)

Just a piece of thought and opinion.

I've been reading some inspirational post from several web. well some of the suggestions dont apply as much to me but some did. it may be worthwhile read for you sweethearts. :D

1. Stop trying to be someone you're not. One of the greatest challenges in life is being yourself in a world that’s trying to make you like everyone else. Someone will always be prettier, someone will always be smarter, someone will always be younger, but they will never be you. Don’t change so people will like you. Be yourself, and the right people will love the real you.

well, this is obviously one of the big issue that most people trying to get rid of nowadays. alhamdullilah right now, i dont bother to be someone else.  i enjoy being myself as if everyone is ok with it. i know some might get annoyed but what can i do? i sure cant please everyone. as long as my family, friends and of course alan,  love me for who i am. :)

2. Stop trying to hold onto the past. You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep rereading your last one.

Yep this is undoubtedly true. life as we know it, we must have some regrets that we often wish it didnt happen. but kita kena sedar, in turn, this makes us stronger and of course experience is the best teacher, having a lot of bad or good experience will change our way of thinking, positively.

3. Stop trying to buy happiness. Many of the things we desire are expensive. But the truth is, the things that really satisfy us are totally free — love, laughter, and working on our passions.

This one is rough for me, and i know it makes me sound superficial. aiyak. its just hard to deny that i cant get happiness by purchase clothes, shoes, clothes & clothes and more clothes! but of course things cant give us pure happiness, the actual meaning of happiness. u know, from what i've read from everywhere, the more you spend some quality time with your family, the more happy you will be and yep i even expirenced it myself, i often spend almost every weekend with my big family and im happy. they are truly gifts from Allah and i am thankful. so laugh more and spread love wherever you go. :)

4. Stop thinking you’re not ready. Nobody ever feels 100 perfect ready when an opportunity arises. Because most great opportunities in life force us to grow beyond our comfort zones, which means we won’t feel totally comfortable at first.

This is what i fear the most. getting prepared. SPM. everytime i thought about it, it gives me butterflies. i am so damn terrified, 50+ days until trial. sigh. 

5. Stop being ungrateful. No matter how good or bad you have it, wake up each day thankful for your life. Someone somewhere else is desperately fighting for theirs Instead of thinking about what you’re missing, try thinking about what you have that everyone else is missing.

There is always room to be more grateful. :) 

Define sexy?

sexiness.

Hi hm rindu nak merepek banyak banyak luah semua benda dekat blog. sekarang semua kena tapis or lets say fake nya! its either people are too judgemental nowadays or im the one who being paranoid. u know, i was so addicted to blogging when i was 13 ke 14 tah. i sanggup tak tidur just to post updates about me life macam lah ada orang baca kan! macam lah! dulu sanggup curi curi buka laptop tengah tengah malam duduk dalam bilik stor panas panas habis hujan ribut petir di armpit. tapi bila ingat balik, indahnya hidup masa tu. konon macam zaman pemerintahan asoka la, zaman kegemilangan. macam ada prinsip, if  i want to do it then i'll do it orang nak cakap apa cakap la, aku tahu aku bahagia. macam macam benda gila i buat sampai tak tersanggup nak cerita kat sini. tp never over the limit of course. im a good girl!

lah sangat.

Dulu time hati senang, ramai sangat teman disisi. then now as time passed by, ciput je yang stay with me through thick and thin. tp alhamdullilah, apa yang jadi dulu makes me grow up much stronger. macam macam manusia dah aku kenal. daripada macam setan sampai la setan bertopeng angel. i selalu pesan kat my cousins yang baru masuk sekolah menengah, i said "kawan la dgn orang baik nanti baik la kau" time time setahun jagung ni la senang terpengaruh. amat grateful my friends yang stay sampai sekarang diaorang baik gila!

lah sangat.


So sebenarnya point i nak blog dgn apa yg i telah type, sangatlah lain. hahahahahaha mmg lari tajuk habis! apa ni woi aku nak update pasal kucing lah! nampak sangat terpesong sbb sangat penat dgn dugaan yang harus ditempuhi oleh calon SPM yang baik lagi cute.

LAH SANGAT!

About April

Hello homies.
april give me so much moments to remember. april has its own bittersweet :)

18th is alan's birthday
20 is anis's birthday
22 is along's birthday who is my cousin
23 is dad's & fariz's birthday
30 is adik's birthday

and ada la my kakak's konon soon to be her husband birthday haha tak ingat bila date but his name is boban :D

so, alhamdullilah hajat nak beli present untuk diaorg smua tercapai except fariz la hihi i just wished him.its the thought that counts actually. and pelik tak pelik now pun dah pikir what kind of present should i buy for mum for her upcoming birthday on June.

all in all, happy birthday to everyone that celebrate their birthday on this month :*

Its me again on keyboard

Kyaaaaaa its Earth Hour! Lets switch our lights off, ala for one hour only ma. bodo la some people time time ni jugak nak ceramah ckp why do we care so much about this earth hour thing before this tak pernah nak kisah pulak about our mother earth. its a campaign kan, at least ada jugak something they do to save the earth. u ada? pui.

actually im here to cheer myself up. oh, ive deactived my fb and twitter. i just want to be alone, period. maybe its just for awhile but hey, i got my diplodocus here so why mind that blue birdy? haha yay diplodocus! sedar tak sedar its April tomorrow. berapa hari lagi weh spm tu nak menggangu tidur malam ku. nightmare. eh tapi skrg earth hour mcm mana nak study? lek kejap la (alasan)

I THINK I'VE LOST YOU 

I miss you a lot more than u think and just because we dont talk much doesnt mean i dont think about you. you never even left my mind, you're there all the time.

Sorry

Sorry, saya seorang manusia yg serba kekurangan.
bila dapat yang baru, lama dilupakan. bila bahagia, lupa siapa yang beri kebahagiaan.
sorry blogspot for not updating much lately. been spending my time just to tweet and tweet.
sorry facebook anda kini hanya tempat saya menyimpan gambar gambar kenangan.
sorry myspace kerana saya kini sudah lupa asal usul saya, andalah tempat dimana saya bertemu dgn mr.right.

kadang kadang aku tak paham kenapa manusia cpt hilang arah. cpt mengatakan sesuatu yang mungkin diri sendiri tidak sedar akan kebenarannya. dapat benda baru, yang lama dicaci, dihina, dikutuk macamlah sebelum ini dia langsung tidak pernah mengenalinya. matanglah engkau.

lumrah alam.

Perlu ke aku ungkapkan satu satu agar kau memahami situasi ini?
Manusia ada akal fikiran bersebab.
think.

Hard time, really.

Listening to dil kya kare at 4 in the morning and asking myself, am i okay?

Thus far this week has been a really down week for me. by that i mean i've been mentally tortured by a lot of thing. real lot like every teardrop has its own stories. painful, full of regrets. people around me have been a total bullies. they bullied me mentally! like c'mon, i was scared by what had happened and diaorg boleh lagi make fun of it. youre like, an adult, nak kahwin pun dah tapi still tak boleh fikir i was actually very frighten and kind of fobia, jot down!

This particular boy that ive killed him so many times in my head, he's spoiled. taknak cakap banyak pasal dia, just by imagining his face dah boleh buat aku angin satu badan. he's the reason im messed up! note to his girlfriend : you've been suffering much. what if i say he's cheating on u? leaving him wouldnt be a crime *wink*

Last but not least, its true. back then i never understand kenapa ada orang stress study sampai nak commit suicide. now i got that feeling. not that commit suicide feeling (so far) just, i've been pushed myself a little bit too hard and i think i shall give myself a break. i was never this serious in studies, so yeah, im kinda proud of myself. hoping to stay this way till the end (:

Hi sayangs.

So, mmg mcm ni la kan. punya banyak benda nak update, bila dah dpn laptop. *poof* my brain gone blank.

Oh! february updates. ok these days i've been spending most of my time at home. you know, home gives you peace. inner peace. so that i can study, study and oh wait, study... haih life. nevermind, something good will come ahead, i just have to be patient. good things only come to people who wait and fight for it. tapi my girls tidak terabai haha haritu picnic dengan suha and anis, too bad the others was busy with their own schedule, i understand. picnic dekat somewhere in putrajaya. pullman lakeside if im not mistaken. the scenery was just, uh-ma-zing. nak tahu tak, berapa juta kali pun i jejak kaki dekat putrajaya, i still amaze dgn the sceneries. sangat cantik sangat nyaman, full with peacefulness. then tadi pun baru lepak dgn the girls. puas hati la, taknak too focus on studies, life pun tak ada. im 17 man! i need that kind of 'life'! haha

not to mention, dengan my lovely pamily! they loves me! hihi it goes like this, act we havent planned a family day for quite sometime, last pun dekat cherating last year. so busu arranged family day kat sunway lagoon. we had so much fun! Kulit pun habis sunburn. yay me, not. nak putih balik pun tah macam mana tah. oh wait, macam la sblum ni putih sangat! HAHA! malunya saya.

so yeah, my life is occupied by adorable fellows. they all complete me with their own special way. the one that completes me most is of course my dear mum, dad and sisters ♥

i miss that someone, so much :(

I FOUND THIS PITCHA REALLY CUTE!

Semakin hari semakin tipis kesabaran. macam semakin hari otak makin berfikiran violence. bila marah dalam hati  wajib terdetik nak bakar orang tu, nak cincang halus halus, tembak sampai berkecai, nak ikat dekat pokok yang full with kerengga. hah puas kan? ye teruskan berimaginasi.

kerana hakikatnya, apabila i marah, i hanya mampu terdiam, stand still and walk away.

tapi today, kemarahan dan kemenyampahan ini dah cecah tahap maximum seperti ingin explode. when we were walking behind them, tiba tiba mereka toleh ke belakang, tunjuk tunjuk then gelak. ok, what the hell. mungkin kerana mereka terlalu amazed melihat kami 5 orang gadis yang paling comel they've ever seen. tapi tak lawak weh!! *pull a trigger*  tanpa membuang masa, kami pun kejar and jalan belakang mereka. suha
kira sampai 3, we laughed like there's no tomorrow. mungkin pakcik pakcik yang sedang nyenyak dibuai mimpi indah mesti bengang siapa la lunatic pyscho yang gelak macam jalan ni dia yang punya. sorry pakcik, if u were me, you'd do the same. kami borak borak dengan ayat yang amat pedas dan sinis sehingga mereka ketakutan dan terus berlari ke depan. yes, winning!!!

psst, tak mampu nak ada pistol. kalau tak........

She just wants to feel like she matters to you. That's not asking for much, bro.