Just a little piece of emotion

Assalammualaikum.

Bismillahirahmannirahim.

This is actually happening. do you even think that im that stupid to really not know what you've been doing? i've known you since like 3 years? and i doubt that there's nobody else knows you that well like i. and hahaha im freaking selfish. i dont even care about you. please la open your mind and think wider. if i do not care about you

*i wont get freaked out when i heard those rumours  about (oh i really dont want to talk about it here) and tried so hard to actually protected you. to jaga maruah kau. to show to people yang you're actually a one good naive girl who have been played by that guy.

*didnt you think that i actually stayed for you even if i dont want to? i made a risk. just because i dont want you to go all emo moody and stuff. sumpah aku sanggup maafkan kau even kau tak cakap sorry pun sbb things so small you wouldnt even care because apa? the value of friendship that i really dont want to lose because apa? because i love you, my friend.

kalau aku tegur kau, kau rasa aku apa? over-protective? duh its what i do, i should do. i scolded you, i yell at you. who else will tell you the same thing? haih i adjusted myself to macam terima lah kau seadanya maybe it will make things a lot easier. do you not know me? do u think i even want this? i already said from the beginnning that things would end up this way. you would end up pilih your boyfriend yang macam tahi tu oh sumpah skrg aku bengang. im sorry if you dont think im the goodie friend that u think i am, well then screw you. macam mana boleh fikir macam tu.

inikah maksud kau yang aku tak care langsung? inikah maksud kau "bila hilang cari, bila ada depan mata tak layan" THIS? oh ainaa dia tu tak kisah la pasal kau, dia nak her way je. tak fikir orang lain rasa apa. well, think again.

this is whats best. well you dont think that for sure, because precisely 'you dont know a thing' haha heads up man. you'll see what i see one day. this maybe a joke to you and u really think im bodoh of what im doing. its not a fact of im doing it, its the ending part that counts which lama lagi akan sampai kot. its up to you la. im not a fool fucekek. im just a friend who take responsibilities cause haha who else yang akan buat macam ni? i afraid no one because tak ada pun yg kisah weh. kawan byk mana pun, they wouldnt care.

haha gila la, this makes me look stupid. hm just taking it out but im not gonna make this blog into a complain trash hehe

Just a quick update post from tempat kerja.

berat turun. 40kg. imagine tinggi i 162cm if im not mistaken. tak normal okay. my berat supposed to be 46kg!

say im being paranoid. say im getting worried over small little thing. say whatever you want.
bila berat dah turun, so do my mood. im upset. im not happy.

i need to gain my weight as soon as possible. being extremely skinny is not a good thing dear friends.

p/s : tak sakit apa apa. genetic maybe. metabolism tinggi. oh why me -.-'

a dedicated post

IT WAS SUHASAM BIRTHDAY!

Dear Amira Nasuha ma girl,

great to hear that you enjoyed your birthday and our suprises. hehehe i may not say this often but i love you so much eventho i barely show it in front of you. i may say you're bodoh, bangang, bungak, sengal tapi kau la kawan that can never be replaced. i will never find someone like you out there because you're so one in a million. dont kembang! i hate to see kau mengembang hahaha man you're getting old! hm ok i know im older. so, someone once said to me that his best age was in teenage life so keep living your life as you wish to live it and every year will be the best year for you. genap next year 5 tahun kita kawan. 5 years which is full with happiness. i really hope you'll be there whenever i need you. dont ever leave me! hurmph i sounds so tapir-ish hahaha dah la penat aku tulis panjang2 hahaha love you till the end of the world! xoxoxo sejuta kali! 

p/s : pakai hadiah tu hari hari hehehehehehe