Mood swings

I dont know why i am feeling this way. i have mood swings almost always. i cry for no reason. like, i can sit  by myself, think about something terrible and i start to cry. i keep thinking about the past andi get angry at just the little things.. am i having depression? but why?!?! even for the slightest thing like he reply late to my texts, watching masterchef, seeing my cats sleeping and there i go again, crying. hm i cant even remember what i used to enjoy doing also.

am i turning into a vampire? oh god, for real la im not joking!! ^^


i dont know la if this thing perlu ada kena mengena dgn how i feel lately. just, i feel very unwanted, not needed, being ignored. the pain of being ignored is really no joke ok. saya nak hidup macam org lain jugak. sangat bahagia dgn that somebody. but that somebody.. just cant seem to be there when i need that somebody. but somehow i already get used to that somebody punya style. nvm. really. feeling unwanted. umph apa pulak tak best (:

I feel like writing, so.

Yesterday was just another ordinary day that i spent with my girls. oh and lissa also, theera's cousin. we laugh, we sing, we scream, we eat, we dance, we talk, we hug. at first we tried to fill in the awkward moment with main  Saidina. it was quite fun for 10minutes but tetibe semua dah cam hilang mood. so okay. simpan then me and aqila try to cheer up ourself with karaoke-ing. tunggang langgang pecah semua cermin. okay that part cam best sebab i enjoyed singing and dancing like a lunatic psycho. then we called Dominos. makan makan makan then, perut dah kenyang suka hati baru masing masing  borak with each other. we slept at 4am. oh chop, anis sorang tidur pukul 6am -.-'

the next morning, i tgh syok dibuai mimpi indah(?) terkejut sebab apa tah, bangun then nampak semua orang dah bangun. and i was terkebil-kebil "awalnya korang bangun?" "naa tengok pukul berapa dah ni" hehehe my bad. brunch, mandi semua, masing masing think3 apa nak buat lepas ni. and kitaorang plan pak rumah tra pulak. so okay, here we are, in uncle arshad's house! then lunch dekat kimbong. perut dah ponoh, balik, guling guling macam dugung. bila dah memang got nothing to do, everyone decided to balik. kisses, hugs so here i am, wearing my beloved pyjamas in my bersepah yet lovely room.

I am thinking about going to bed early tonight. enough feeding my diplodocus's belly. you're getting fatter lah!

I miss teh, i cried. 

This is a warning : this post will be awfully long. yeah ye shuckers.


The school holiday already began. its always ended up like this, i was very excited when i heard holidays was just around the corner but then, bila dah holiday. i.got.no.better.things.to.do.than.spending.most of my time.in.front.of.the.laptop. bet everyone's feeling the same way.....

so, not a waste of space. i wud like to share what i've been up to since last week hehe put your glasses on! zz

Me and suha, atheera, anis, adila, qila made this jumble sale thingy and it was great we succeded in getting a lotz of money haha alhamdullilah. guess we've lost our mind sebab we plan it just for 2 days and its on. imagine, a zillion lot of tops needed to get some umm what is it called eh, ah nvm. so we decided to make an event on facebook to let them (as in, friends) know. we made fliers and give it to random fellas. how on earth we managed to actually done that all in 2days. umph so proud of myself *batting eyelashes*

Then, on 13th nov, atheera's abang wedding dinner! gila g! i was one of the receptionist. kerja me, bawa guests pergi table and etc. at first gila kabut sebab ramai orang datang at one time so kitaorang ada 8 orang je, kabut kejap je la. because ainaa came to rescue muahaha so happy dapat tolong the bride and groom jayakan their wedding. both of them are really meant to be together, live long and make lot of adorable babies abang chadlie and kak yana! hihihihi seronok tengok orang kahwin. when la will my time come..... hihi ^^

On 15th nov, me anis atheera and alan went too zoo negara! yiaaaaah yippie yahuu i finally got to meet my friends! hello elephant, monkeys. cute birdies, crocodile, tigers and all lah! gila pe nak list sekor sekor. hehe i was like dan...cing...on... air...happily..... hihihi but yeah, hari rabu kan so zoo tu macam krik krik sikit la tapi ramai foreigner, wooot ada this one dude handcem. anis gonna make him hers one day. she even had a picture of him! im going to mandrem him or somewhat to make he likes anis back hahahaha plis dont take it seriously.  so pictures may start talking now

banyak lagi sebenarnya tapi hang gila pa nak upload smua kat sini. hehe so okay, till then!

Talk to me, im all ears.

Hello hi now im free! finals are over and school break almost started in a few more days. oh wait damn, result. result. macam. macam. tahi. oh please ignore my result. anggap lah i tak pernah ambil exam -.-' pathetic me.

It was a good idea to go to school today. because why? well it felt like sekolah itu aku yang punya hahahaha it was so quite and peace! kriks sound was all i heard. screamed, laughed wont make a big deal. lepak lepak dekat canteen with the teachers wont be a problem. gosh how i wish hari hari skolah macam tu. kan heaven! but still, there's still a lot of unsettled things. organise lawatan sekolah sangat sangat penat and give a lot of pressure. but somehow, its fun.

Yeah, these days im stepping into a new era, totally my rules of life are twisting like.... wake up early in the morning and then straight to take a shower. plus, kurung-ing myself in my room, reading my mates tweets, online facebook, watch dramas. i still have tons of dramas i havent watch but should!. bekalan for this holiday i guess, lorgh i just make myself look like one of those pathetic cavegirls!! naaaaaaah, im still living in my buitipul life :D

I miss writing. tapi, symptom kemalasan telah conquer setiap pelusuk tubuh badan i yang tak seberapa nak kurus ni.

Well, lets kick on.

hello. tadi pi alamando with cousins and sistah pikir nak tengok tower heist tapi kakak dah tengok dengan dia punya 'so called friend' so  kena paksa tengok ra-one. but then nvm lah, since i pun mmg suka srk (*knock knock* dah berapa zaman tah i tak tengok cerita hindustan) sad life. before sampai macam macam dalam kepala otak i nak beli, but ended up with balik dengan tangan kosong. know what, i sayang nak keluarkan duit eventho benda tu memang dah lama i pikir nak beli. bodoh tak? bodoh kan. i pun tengah renung-renung ni since when i sayang duit -.-' 

Hmph. i nak gemuk! mungkin ini kali yang ke 123456789 kali i kata i nak gemuk. tah bila la zaman i nak gemuk tiba? makan banyak as hell tapi perut je yang kedepan. apa nak jadi ni, teruk rupanya anak dara buncehet okay. 

ok lah. just a quick update post from me. till then!